Gumption

So, I think my scale is broken. It hasn't moved at all the last 3 weeks. *Sigh* At least I know my eating habits aren't making me gain weight. I've been trying to eat better. Or, at least I've been trying to eat a balanced meal.

I've been making myself eat breakfast, which is nice. I don't feel as hungry during the day. Leamon wants oatmeal every day for breakfast, which I thought would be boring, but surprisingly it's not. But it can't be regular oatmeal, it has to be steel cut oatmeal, cause it's better for you. (He's done more research on things that are good for you versus things that are bad for you than I have, so I tend to follow his advice.) So, plus side to steel cut oatmeal, I really like it. It has a nice texture and taste. Down side to it, it takes 20 minutes to cook. Some nights I boil water, pour oatmeal into a Stanley thermos, add the boiling water, seal it up, shake it and let it set overnight. In the morning, all you have to do is scoop it out (which can be quite messy) and stir it up a little.

In my husbands defense, he doesn't want just oatmeal. He wants oatmeal, eggs, fruit, and yogurt. He's figured out a way to get it ready the night before so it only takes a few minutes in the morning, but we haven't tried it yet.

As for lunches, well, since I get up so late I kind of skip over lunch. I don't really get hungry until around 3, but I know that by then Leamon will be home in a few hours, so I just grab a snack. Some times I actually do eat lunch so I eat leftovers from the night before. Yeah, I know the whole thing about "Early to bed and early to rise, makes a man healthy, and wealthy, and wise." But normal people don't really go to bed at 9 o'clock and wake up at 5, do they? What in the world can you do at 5 in the morning? 10 o'clock, I think I can handle. Maybe. I'm a night person, going to bed before 11:30 is just hard for me. (Except when I had to be at work at 6, then I could go to bed around 9:30 or 10)

Another saying that I've heard but yet to put into practice is "Eat breakfast like a King, lunch like a Prince, and dinner like a poor college student." In other words, eat a lot at breakfast, a decent amount at lunch and hardly anything at dinner. Did you know that way back when, Lunch was the big meal of the day? For dinner, you ate leftovers or something light. I've heard that this is how they do it in France and other such places. Not sure if it's true, but if so, that's cool.

So, you may ask, if I know all this stuff why don't I just do it? Easy. I have no gumption. I don't want to sacrifice my late night reading, to go to bed early, so I can get up early and read. What fun would that be? (Can you hear the sarcasm?) If it would make my beloved husband happy for me to have breakfast waiting for him at a decent hour so he can get to work on time, why not do it? Ugh, I hate what this is saying about me. It's kinda hard admitting to yourself that you're lazy. When other people say it (like your mom), you can just brush it off, tell yourself that it's not true. When you tell yourself that however, it makes it kinda impossible to deny.

This making myself a better person is going to be harder than I thought. But in the end, it'll be soooo worth it. Right?